Anyone
hearing that Stephanie Beacham had returned to England last summer
might have imagined the Hollywood star doing the season
-Wimbledon, Ladies Day at Royal Ascot, Glyndebourne and so
on - and perhaps fitting in a little work. But the reason
Stephanie spent her first summer here in more than ten years,
since her move to California and success in Dynasty and
The Colbys, couldnt have been more different.
She
came to Britain not because of the social calendar, nor to enjoy
the fruits of her years of hard work. She came on account of her
fathers failing health and her overwhelming desire to
spend time with her parents.
Ive
always been very close to my parents, Stephanie says. I
dont do anything without discussing it with my mother
first. Were always on the phone. But I decided I wanted to
communicate in the same time zone. It was also the realisation
that they arent going to be around forever.
Daddy
was starting to get a little wobbly in the early spring. Hes
88 and it was obvious that my mother, whos 82, couldnt
cope any more. It was time for him to go into a home where he
could be cared for properly. That had to be sorted out and I
wanted to spend some time with him.
Im
sure people are convinced I had a grand old time, swanning
around from one engagement to another, but in fact it was a
nightmare summer for me. For the first time Im discovering
what middle age is about, says Stephanie, 49. My
parents were always the rock in my life and I was the rock and
roller. Now Im having to be their rock as well as my
childrens. The responsibility is energising, but its
also quite overwhelming. It leaves very little time for
yourself.
With
family matters heavy on her mind and also saddened by the death
of her dog Emily, a cavalier King Charles spaniel and her
constant companion at home in Malibu, Stephanie then arrived at
her daughters in Bristol to find bailiffs claiming Phoebe,
a student at Bristol Old Vic Theatre School, hadnt paid
her council tax.
Having
sold her London home a few years ago, Stephanie had always
intended Phoebes home to be a sort of family meeting
place. But it had turned into a sort of student doss
house, Stephanie says with a laugh. When I arrived I
had to put 12 loads through the washing machine and get an
industrial carpet cleaner in!
If
there was one thing that saved Stephanies summer, it was
work. Before leaving Los Angeles, she called her British agent
and asked if there was anything. By chance, Alan Dosser, whod
directed Stephanie in Connie in the mid-Eighties, was
making a new series and there would almost certainly be a part
for her.
It
came in the form of a leading role in No Bananas, a
major ten-part drama series set in Britain during the Second
World War, due to be screened on BBC1 in May. Stephanie plays
rich socialite Dorothea Grant, who is unable to come to terms
with the changes imposed by war.
Having
the series was an absolute godsend, Stephanie says. It
helped keep me sane and gave me something to think about other
than my problems. Im always astonished by how life
responds if you really need something. The key is knowing what
youre looking for - the rest is strategy.
She
feels a deep sense of gratitude to the five people who designed
her clothes and did her make-up. They were my support team
throughout the summer. Im not sure Id have made it
without them. They didnt just make me look good in front
of the camera, they made me feel good too. I would arrive first
thing in the morning, feeling so down, and they would listen to
me, pick me up and steer me through.
At
the same time Stephanie was making No Bananas, she was
also appearing on stage in Strindbergs The Father,
which was due to go to the West End after a short tour but never
made it. I was disappointed at the time, Stephanie
admits, but in retrospect it was just as well, because I
was probably pushing myself too hard.
When
Emily died I just cried and cried. I just couldnt stop.
Daddy was going from bad to worse, Mummy was going from poorly
to bad, and I hadnt really accepted that any of it was
happening. I was organising and taking care of them, but I wasnt
facing up to things emotionally.
Stephanie
has mixed feelings about having to return to Los Angeles. Its
so empty not having Emily around, she says. Im
used to hearing the pitter-patter of her little paws across the
wooden floors. When Phoebe and my younger daughter Chloe came
out for Christmas, we took her favourite walk to the top of the
hill near the house and scattered her ashes.
Nevertheless
she is glad to be home: If only because Im getting
back to my own life. For the whole summer I was there for
everyone else. Life was a call sheet, doing what other people
wanted. Theres been no room for me.
Im
not going to do any work for a while, Im going to go
missing. Its important to recognise when you are burnt out
- and Im at that point. I need to relax and have a laugh.
She
also plans to make some changes in her life. She wants to sell
her Malibu home and just keep her apartment in Hollywood. She
intends to buy a house in the South of France which will become
her base, plus a London pied-à-terre.
Ive
done everything Ive wanted to do with large houses. Ive
had swimming pools and large gardens with automatic sprinkler
systems, now I want to downscale and live in cupboards so I dont
need to earn so much money. That way I can choose the projects I
want. It means my legacy will be a small trail of quality
projects, too.
I
have to be realistic and recognise that Ive had a
fantastic time in Hollywood, with six series - Dynasty, The
Colbys, Sister Kate, seaQuest, Beverly Hills 90210 and Legend
- in ten years. Its an amazing run, but its time to
move on. You have to remember that unlike most people in
Hollywood, who starved to get there, I just fell on my feet. One
minute I was playing Connie and the next I was in Dynasty
working alongside people like Charlton Heston, Barbara Stanwyck
and Katharine Ross. Talk about luck!
Looking
back, she has nothing but happy memories of that time, the last
chance to experience what life was like as an actress signed to
a big studio.
They
were heady days and the star treatment was wonderful, she
recalls. There was a strict code: no jeans in public, no
appearance without make-up or your hair done. The studio took
care of everything: lent you the most wonderful clothes, did
your hair and make-up and sent a car to pick you up whenever you
went to an event.
She
can remember her sister Di-Dis horror when she saw
Stephanie toss a pair of $10 tights shed worn only once
into the bin. My sister gathered them up because she
couldnt bear such waste, Stephanie laughs. That
was my check-in with reality.
Following
Stephanies divorce from John McEnery nearly 20 years ago,
she has been linked with a series of glamorous and often younger
men. But an older and wiser Stephanie now says she wants to keep
her private life exactly that for the moment.
Ive
had my fingers burnt too many times in the past and probably
said too much. Now Ive made a decision not to discuss a
relationship until I feel really sure about it. When I do,
Hello! readers will be the first to know!
I
dont see myself ever marrying again. But if I do, all my
friends will know that its for all the right reasons. Itll
be because were wonderfully and truly in love rather than
doing it on a whim or because it seems romantic. I wont go
through some empty charade.